I want my own place UGHHHHHH.

I got a conference next monday and tuesday in Birmingham, they booked me a hotel room and everything, Dad waits until NOW to say he doesn't want me going, just like he did with London.

For fuck sake just fuck off will you. Amy moved out when she was my age but I can't go to Birmingham for the night? I know he is worried about my welfare but i'd rather get shot tomorrow if I knew I couldn't live my life to the full and do what I want to be doing. I'm nearly 18.

Mum also doing my head in, she said to me you don't understand why your brother has little confidence when he was bullied at school.

Hello? I fucking got kicked out went back and ended up dropping out because I had such a hard time. The only reason she doesn't know I was bullied in Middle school was because I don't want to make her more depressed then she is already. The reason I never went to her? Cause she would go down the school and kick their heads in and that would just make things a lot worse. I had zero confidence when I dropped out and she knows that but claims I don't know what it is like. Fuck off. UGHHH. I did eveything I can to get the confidence I have today and I still aren't major happy with myself but I've come a long way. It's different for everyone but how dare she say I DON'T KNOW how it feels. My brother would have a lot more confidence if people in this family were encouraging but NOOO. The people that gave me confidence were my friends.

Twats at time, I love them to bits but seriously. I'll be dragged down if I don't get my own place in a few years. Go on the pissin doll if I have to.