Lmao.

I'm watching Along Came Polly on Tv totally hilarious!

   Today has been a long confusing day. I got to the station earlier than usual to find out my train had been cancelled. The next one was an hour, I mean my lesson was only hour long so what's the point? That was unless I got the train to Shrub Hill so I did and managed to not to get lost. Sam was walking down the path and I said it had been cancelled then I walked off. He managed a smile later on, and I think maybe one day we will make up, but then I look back at the argument he never apologised for those things he said...and I changed my mind...he needs to change otherwise it will be the same as before.

   Things are getting so confusing..my good friend from college..I think I'm getting feelings for him. Not like before, proper feelings and I don't know whether I want them or how to stop them. I feel he is acting a little different but I don't know..His girlfriend treats him like shit but he stays with her ...but he must really love her, or be scared to be on his own like he said when I asked. I'd never even consider going futher unless he was single anyway. The other thing is..I don't know whether it would work...he gets in so many fights..some funny I admit but sometimes it scares me..like Chemical and all that lot I wish he wouldn't hang out with him. Plus the drugs thing..he's not an idiot he wouldn't take heroin but the pressure everyone put on him to take drugs..he caved in and god I don't want that. He might not even like me that way I don't know..it's like you know when someone invades your personal space and you automatically move away cause you feel uncomfortable..well I did the other day, because I can get so nervous in situations like that. I wouldn't even sit between him and Hayley because we would have been so bunched up. But that was only because of everything being on my mind. Earlier on at college I just wanted to get home, now I just want to be at college and see how everything is going.. I don't know whether I'd be good enough for him anyway. He has asked me about 10 thousand times to go back to Mal, where he lives but I keep saying when I have money, In the holidays, Soon...because i've told him I'm shit scared of getting near to those friends of his. But it's also because i'd be uncomfortable. I dunno..I'll see what Friday is like I guess.

On another note my friend is convinced she is pregnant...How many people do I know that have babies or having is beyond me. But if she is and she wants the baby then I'll support her.